One way to think of zen is this: a total state of focus that incorporates a total togetherness of body and mind. Zen is a way of being. It also is a state of mind. Zen involves dropping illusion and seeing things without distortion created by your own thoughts.
I have always reveled in that moment of recognition, in seeing something for what it truly is. The hard part is doing that while looking inward, which is why it is probably the most crucial act one can perform. We are taught at an early age to see ourselves how others see us. To press beyond our own freak and conform to acceptability. There are reasons, of course, why it is good to be able to function within the social confines and constructs of the masses. It allows us to take part in the global processes of being a human. Why, however, can’t we also walk our own roads from time to time and not be shunned, ridiculed, or denigrated. We should celebrate the complexity of the self and not hammer it on the anvil of homogeneity until it is flat, bland, and dull.
The word freak is usually taken to equate one to deviancy. In this case, however, I want you to take it for that part of you that is so genuine, so unique, it laughs out loud while you are dancing in the rain. It is your inner-child grown, but grown without pigeon-holing it to be something other than it should be. You will know it when you face it, smile, and hug it like that first breath you gulp after you’ve been under water almost too long. One must be able to go zen if they are truly able to find their freak. But it will NOT be easy.
Do you have any idea how many layers have been heaped upon each other to compress us into not even recognizing we all have our inner freak? Unfortunately, the process is scary to so many, that they can’t even conceive of the thought of having an inner freak. Believe me, I know. So for now, how about we all just take a pause to breathe fully and slowly. Listen to the susurrating draw and push of air as it cycles through us. Let it find it’s way into our extremities until, at last, we are not afraid that we might just be our own person. And so is everyone else.
If not now…zen?